Saturday, March 3, 2012

Why Do I Still Struggle With This Christian Stuff?

The thing I kept missing as I vacillated between license and legalism, was I did not know how to live this Christian life. I did not know how to be filled with the Holy Spirit, or apply the Scriptures to my life. That last little sentence at the end of my story, "Garon started discipling me." Discipleship is a big key component to a Christian's life. The disciples had to be trained in how to be obedient to God. Jesus taught them how to pray and to honor God. What sport or skill do we take up, and just instantly think we are to be experts at? Nothing! So how come when it comes to the Christian life, we just expect it to happen like magic. It comes from study, a life steeped in the word. It comes from prayer, a dependence upon God and the Holy Spirit. It comes from application of God's word to our lives, daily. Last it comes from watching others who walk with the Lord and their accountability.

After becoming a Christian, I had heard the Bible stories, I had prayed the prayers, but I did not know how to apply that to my life. I did not have Christian friends in high school. I did not go to Youth group, there was none. In college, I had not one single Christian friend. Most people I knew went to church on Sunday, prayed, sang, and testified to Jesus, but most of them lived differently during the week. The few that did follow Jesus during the week, did not know how they did it, but just thought it came naturally, instantly. They thought all Christians did that once they were saved. Garon began my discipling, but he could only teach me what he knew. He taught me the few things he had gleaned as a college student at Lakeview, but he had never formally been discipled, so some things he just did not know how to handle. After Garon discipled me the best he could, I started asking people questions. I thought every Christian knew how to study their Bible. 95% of the time, Christians I talked to, could not explain to me how they study their Bible. This is why I am so passionate about Biblical Counseling and Discipleship. Discipleship is important for our faith, to become closer to God, to honor God, and to help others do the same (the sanctification process). Biblical Counseling is just another way of discipling (a sanctification process), that is more intense and focuses on something in particular we are struggling with, a sin, that we are struggling to put "to death", that hinders our walk with the Lord or how to handle a trial in our life without sinning. So now you know why I want to be a Biblical Counselor, and why I feel so passionate about discipleship.